It Is Good.

Where there are no oxen, the manger is clean,

but abundant crops come by the strength of the ox.

~Proverbs 14:4

Laugh With Me...

Sunday:

4:30 pm MW gets sent to her bed until "Daddy comes home"

4:31 pm Warrior begins crying and pawing at the kennel door

4:45 pm I nurse MC

5:05 pm Little man has a blow out, requiring an immediate bath, as well as toilet seat sanitation (for the fourth time in 48 hours - he has a little bug)...Warrior's still crying

5:20 pm MC is screaming

5:21 pm Little Man "trusts a poot" and wha-la...a tub FULL of diarrhea

5:25 pm tub is drained, little man is told to stand still in the rear of the tub while I, uh-hum, wash out what didn't drain

5:26 pm Little Man disobeys, begins jumping, I tell him to stop, he disobeys and slips and hits his head

5:27 pm Little Man and MC are both screaming and the phone is ringing

finally I get everyone calmed down and baby put to bed...Little Man is running through the house naked and Warrior is STILL crying and pawing at his kennel door

fast forward...

Monday:

3 am Little Man is crying...I go to investigate...he's had a blow out and his little booty is raw (this happened the night before...about the same time). I carry him to the tub, bathe him, tell him stories about snakes in an effort to distract him from the sting...strip off soiled sheets, sanitize EVERYTHING (I am so thankful for lysol and clorox and dial bath soap!).

3:53 am back in bed

4:20-ish am Little Man's crying again...T settles him this time...he'd had a bad dream?

7:00 am Warrior is crying and pawing at his kennel door...MC wakes to nurse and MW comes down and has had an accident in her bed (she hasn't done this in over a year...what are the odds?)

7:20 am MC is content, MW is bathed, we go to get Warrior out to let him potty and eat...too late. He's pooped in his kennel and eaten most of it...disgusting

7:21 am MC is screaming. I haul the kennel outside and proceed to disassemble it, spray it out, sanitize the stew out of it, and bathe the dog

7:50 am I haul said kennel up to MW's room and run back downstairs to settle MC

8:15 am MC is down, I strip MW's bed and begin the first of at least three loads of soiled laundry...

Happy Monday!

Whitewashed Tombs, II

{taken by MW}

First off, I really appreciate your encouraging comments, emails, and even a few phone calls - one from my high school history teacher, regarding an earlier post, Whitewashed Tombs! Thank you! You are incredibly encouraging!

My intention in writing that post was to be open and honest. There's a great temptation for me to write our lives as a story book and to leave out some of the very things that shape and make us into who we are...the hard things that challenge us and force us to look our sin in the eye and call it what it is and do battle against it. Again, I don't think a blog is the place to air dirty laundry, but I am convinced there is a balance to be had. I'd like you to know that I asked T to read that post prior to posting, just as I've asked him to read this one. I wanted his blessing and he gladly gave it.

Off and on we've been reading Sacred Marriage by Gary Thomas. T and I take turns reading aloud...of course, we've been reading this book together for well over six months now... sometimes I pick it up and read a chapter solo. Recently I read chapter six, which has been particularly awesome. The title: The Cleansing of Marriage, How Marriage Exposes Our Sin. Thomas writes about marriage revealing just how small and unforgiving we can be.

"I discovered a hardness in me I had never experienced before....until I got married and discovered how passionately annoyed I can become at pulling out empty ice cube trays...Was I really so selfish that I was willing to let seven seconds' worth of inconvenience (to refill the ice cube trays) become a serious issue in my marriage? Was my capacity to show charity really that limited? Indeed it was."

Amen.

Thomas also includes a quote from Helen Rowland that T and I both got a kick out of:

"Marriage is the operation by which a woman's vanity and a man's egotism are extracted without anesthetic."

How very true. And how very painful.

My vanity is being extracted. Warrior is doing great. MW continues to amaze me with her diligence in caring for him. T was off Friday and tended to every aspect of the little guy. And my heart, my hard and angry heart, is softening a bit...little by little. Writing Whitewashed Tombs and then having T read it was theraputic for me. The reality is, we are two sinners saved by the grace of God alone. We are both incredibly hard headed and stubborn and we both think our way is the best way and we love one another a lot. When two sinners live under the same roof, conflict will occur. I've watched conflict unite one couple, while it divides another. I hope and pray that as we face our own sin and failures and take responsibility, that the Holy Spirit will work in our hearts and make us tender and forgiving. And I hope that you are encouraged by me sharing this. I admit to a little fear as I hit "post" on that earlier entry. As Thomas writes, "My natural sin bent is to hide and erect a glittering image." He goes on to quote Dan Allender and Tremper Longman,

"Man was meant to be a bold creative artist who plunges into the unformed mystery of life and shapes it to a greater vision of beauty. At the Fall he became a cowardly, violent protector of nothing more than himself. Intimacy and openness were replaced by hiding and hatred."

We live in a fallen world and we are fallen creatures. And we like the erected, glittering image.

And so...here we are, flaws and all. I don't want to hide and pretend like we have it all together. We don't. And life is beautiful, even through the tears. God has worked through so much heartache in our marriage...heartache brought on through a hundred different disappointments and difficulties, some from outside and some from within. We are husband and wife, and we fail often, and we are committed, and by the grace of God, He is sanctifying us.

Praise be to God!