Thursday, January 10, 2013

For Memory's Sake...


I just like this picture. It's so Sister caught off guard.


The girls dancing, Little Bit in footy pajamas and mary janes, and Little Man employing his skillz.


And for posterity...all three on Christmas morning. Poor kids. We make them wait until 7:30! They were beyond ready! 


Not sure what's up with Little Bit's expression. Well, kind of not sure what's up with anyone's expression. Hee hee.


Little Bit sportin' a 'stache.



All three 'stache-in it up.


Workin' on the milk 'stache.


Sister's BIG gift...


A new winter coat! She's only been wearing the same one for the last four years... a North Face my sister scored for a dollar at the thrift store! I just put it away for Little Bit. And sweet Sister, the sleeves are finally long enough to pass her wrists. (To our credit, she had insisted she did NOT want a new coat! However, it became obvious to even our most staunch "don't ever change anything" activist that her coat had become too small and it was indeed time for something new.)

Today marks the one year anniversary of losing our little lamb. There's a sweet peace in my heart. The Lord has done great things. He has carried us in this season of grief. 

I thought I'd never reach the day when the tears wouldn't spill over at the thought of our precious babe.

I wondered if I'd ever honestly be able to rejoice with others as God blessed them with babies. 

Would the pain ever fade? 

Would our family ever feel whole again? 

Would my broken heart ever stop bleeding?!

And yet, here we are. God has brought such healing. His mercies are new every morning. He is good. And He is faithful. I still think of our little one often. I miss our precious babe. I am thankful for His work in our lives, in my heart, in our marriage. It has been hard. And painful. And good. And He is sovereign.

I recently read this post and was so encouraged. 

"Lord, you assigned me my portion and my cup; You have made my lot secure...The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance." Psalm 16:5-6

Happy Thursday night, y'all!


6 comments:

  1. Big hugs from miles and miles away. Miss and love y'all!

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  2. Thinking of you as you remember your sweet little one. Rejoicing with you in all that God has done this year in your lives!

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  3. Precious Jennifer...all of it! Your children are always captured so beautifully in your photos...such treasures to remember these days by...you will be so glad you took the time to document the days. :) And...what a beautiful way to end this post...with the memory of the loss of your little one and the verse of Scripture that is so encouraging. How Precious our Saviour is!! We are kept so tenderly in the palm of HIS Hand!

    MUCH Love to you!
    Camille XOXO

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  5. Hi Jennifer -- I love following your blog, even though we've never met! I was so moved by the story of your miscarriage and I'm so glad to see the healing that now fills your hearts.

    I wanted to go out on a limb and mention to you that I have three women in my life who dealt with later-than-usual miscarriages, and all three ended up having the same condition. Their blood clotted, preventing the egg from implanting properly (I think). The solution was to put them on blood-thinning shots daily. (Either Heparin or Lovenox.)

    One friend had to do this for both of her children. The other two ladies had a child normally, and then before having their second, they had miscarriages before discovering this problem.

    Anyway, don't know where you are regarding future babies, but wanted to throw that out in the small chance it might apply!

    Love and warm thoughts toward your family

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  6. Thank you for the link friend! One of these day, we have to meet!

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